searching

completely undecided on this
i like and dislike it
and i think it is finished
and also unfinished
as per custom, scroll down
and click play first,
then read

look out across this field
don't you see?
don't you know?
you were out there searching too
wasn't too long ago
we've all been here searching
but there are no answers there
no answers between the blades of grass
that sway in the winds of words
no answer to pick from the flower stalks
or from the branches of trees
that dance in the sun's spotlight
painted mountains glow
feathered clouds hover
follow the blade of grass that
beckons the way to nowhere
follow the chirp of birds
to swirl around in circles
you must see this, don't you?
searching infinitesimally
you were out there searching too
out among the others
searching for something that
we cant quite figure out
searching for the answers to questions
we've asked before
questions we don't yet understand
questions that we're not even aware of yet
looking for something to soothe the pains
of wounds, that often times,
we don't even remember
searching down mental corridors
down the late night city streets
and dance floor fantasies
searching at the bottom of bottles
bottles of forgetfulness or shame
to help us even forget our own names
to forget ourselves
falling down into beds of despair
into the webs woven by others
to trap and confine within the needs
of someone else also searching
saying all the right things
tickling all the right places in the heart
of dreams eternal
and when one of us falls
another comes behind us searching
searching in the same places
and in the same ways
making the same mistakes
or getting destroyed in the same ways
and a single blade of grass falls to the dirt
falls to the dirt