another passes

and so another maple leaf passes by me
floating effortlessly in the river as it goes out of sight
and cant help but think how many more leaves will
i get to watch come to me then pass me by
i am in the same river as they and still
i watch them all as they proceed

this is obviously not finished yet, but oh well
posting it anyway and then will either finish it
or just scrap it and move on
it's speaking of friendships and how
for some of us they come and go
no matter how much it happens it's usually tough
especially when it's a close friend, a best friend
and then you dont have that one person you can talk to
anymore
anyway i will finish it(as if anyone actually reads this thing)

sharing music videos

this is to share a few songs with whomever might read my pointless
rambling of a dilapidated blog
2 of my all time favorite songs by richard d james(aphex twin)
but in reverse:
stone in focus 
http://youtu.be/UndhEm9NBCo
rhubarb
http://youtu.be/nh9TUcku57E

both of these are beautiful and sad and i love it

random thoughts

the cloud consumes what's in my mind. the truth that hides i did not find.
to read completely between the lines, will keep me confined within my mind.

woke up one morning and after going through the first half of my day
i begun to think as usual and the above is what first came to my mind
often feel like i am fighting a losing battle.....and the fight is getting old.
Used and abused is a mainstay. being the "nice guy" and all.
this last bit i found randomly on the internet.

I'm digging my way to something better. i'm sowing the seeds I take for granted.
This thorn in my side is from the tree I planted. And it tears me and I bleed