1-12-17

well, it's the new year now, the holidays in recession
my birthday nears in a few weeks, nothing new there
another day, another year older, closer to the unknown
and so my mind is still the same, not much moving
around in there these days, spit out a few new "pieces"
of digital art, but those are as simple to create as eating pizza
today was a hard day, harder than usual,
the weight of a thousand thoughts piled on my mind
a thousand thoughts of a thousand lifetimes
been physically sick for the past few days
some kind of flu/upper respiratory infection type thing
there were two days of not being able to move much at all
didn;t eat for nearly 48 hours, but did drink a little
and still became very dehydrated with the chapped/cracking lips
body feeling ok now, but head and lungs still funky
the cough is brutal at times as well with the headaches and such
that and this state of mind and we're talking a real party here
well, the cats are up to their usual of this hour.
in the back room sleeping in ways we only dream of
my wings were clipped shortly after i was born
my body has only ever flown high up in the sky
when i had true, romantic, unconditional love
and ive only ever had that once.
and now i dream, i dream a dream eternally