some days

some days, i feel the pain of a thousand years
a thousand years of heartache, heartbreak, and loss
and oh do my eyes ache...ache so loudly
some days,  i feel the hopelessness of the orphaned child
the orphaned child that cries in the moonlit night
waiting, hoping for the bliss of adoption
some days, i feel the defeat of a conquered city
buildings crumbing and in ruins
smoldering pillars of smokes rising into the sky
some days, i feel the abandonment a that a pet
that was left behind in some random parking lot to fend for itself
a desperate clinging to any and all that come along
to get beat down or taken for granted
some days, i feel the pain
some days, i feel the hopelessness
some days, i feel the defeat
some days, i feel the abandonment
today, is one of those days

insomnia driven writing....well sadness and insomnia