8-2-2022 23:40

a short journal entry
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it's been a while since i've done this
still living in a span of silence
as my thoughts aren't 
catching my attention enough
for me to sit and type them out
i am physically active now and 
try to speed walk 3 miles a day now
going good so far
i seem to be losing weight
although i've no scale to actually check
it has been therapeutic 
as there's plenty of time to reflect
on life, on the state the world
time for me to watch as the birds fly over trees
and the clouds to linger in unison
and to see the correlation of all things
the wind blows, the bird flies, the leaf grows,
the sun rises and sets,
life begins and ends
i feel a real calmness inside these days
i can actually sit still for longer
than just a few minutes
i can actually sit and enjoy nature
for hours without the need for distraction
or without the bouncing of a knee
not quite to a contentment state just yet, but close
it's as if i'm being refined like some ore

i will undoubtedly get into a counseling habit 
for a bit as well to deal with things i've put off
most all of my life, the abuses and things i witnessed
and the stuff that dealt blows to my mind and emotions
but at least i feel good most days, a far cry from what
once was for me and my state of mind
i've begun to take pictures again as well,
something i long gave up before
mostly shots of the sky, sunsets, and tree lines
nothing fancy, just smart phone camera takes
i walk forward firmly towards 
the horizon of possibilities
and as another midnight passes by
i think about those out there on this planet
thinking of the totality of life and of existence
and i feel a comfort knowing i'm not the only one

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