intoxicated contents of my mind

tripped up, a stumbling fall
now aches the toes that were stubbed
or was it the heart that stumbled and fell
the aches persist like a loud ringing in ones ear
a shell of dreams and hopes, desires and aspirations
the left overs from shelling peanuts
it's easier to exhale than it is to inhale
a shoulder to lean on, to cry on, an ear that really truly cares
arms to wrap around me and squeeze me, hold me, embrace me.
still persists the arms of emptiness, loneliness, alienation
those are the ones i wish and long to be rid of
those 'how was your day?' days
those warm, emotion filled hug days
those passionate kisses and loving days
and so i just have to watch.......

they have it all, choking in completion, yet missing something.
they have it all, watching across fields of green and comfort.
they have it all, looking for others and sadness.
they have it all, laying down on beds of dreams.
dreams that others wish and long for.
those of us in the gutters, in the streets, in the hollow halls of sadness and despair.
watching them take advantage of simplicity and beauty.
ignoring the now,  and looking towards tomorrow left with sorrow. 

this was written while i was intoxicated 

sometime last night around midnight or so

only just found it in my drafts and figured

i'd go ahead and post it anyway